~FUCK LOVE~

I expect nothing from you, so that anything you give will be enough...all grown up, without the luxury of ignorance, my bliss slips deep into a fragile state...not often, souls mate.. as ours have. but every checkmate leaves me checking...checking heartbreak...small chips leave slivers like splinters in my mind...marking each specific time, so that like central and pacific time... the off sets line up... so when it's time to make my mind up, I can call each little time up...and remember the pain... that's the way it's always been...but like the old folks say...the successful ones anyway... They say if what I'm doin aint workin, then I should try somethin else....unless I'm insane, in which case I think the same thing will yield different results... But I am all the way in my right mind...so I decided this time, that I expect nothing from you, so that anything you give will be enough, but...all grown up, without the luxury of ignorance, my bliss slips deep into a fragile state...and I just keep right on takin the bait...and what a fool of me, does that make?... expect nothing, receive nothing, be OK... seems like I figured out the game, but nobody wins that way..so I slip back into old ways...where I am once again a pawn, and here I am, the war is on...queen captured by love, and one more checkmate leaves me numb...so that I'm checking for splinters, cus I can't feel them, time has come....back around to same old things...so, I expect nothing from you, so that anything you give will be enough... this is insanity..I give up... fuck love!...

~TEDDI B.

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